Even though it was one of my 150 goals, I never thought I would actually sit on a board of directors of anything, let alone voted in to hold one of the offices. What a learning experience I've had over the last two years and I'm the better for it, I believe.
But, today, between writing board minutes and answering an annoying phone call, I typed a short resignation letter to the executive board committee, and I resigned.
The decision to walk away was not an easy one. Every time I thought about it I felt like a quitter. Like the girl on the team who one day decides that she has had enough and storms off the field in the middle of the game to go get her nails done. In my mind, I'd see disappointment in the faces of my fellow board members and the thought made me cringe.
But, during last month's meeting one of the staff members said something that felt like one of those V-8 commercial slaps upside the head. She said, "At this point in your life, you should be donating your time to what you are passionate about. Your time is valuable and if it's not well-spent here, why do it?"
Why do it? Sometimes we do the right things for the wrong reasons and we find ourselves afraid to fail forward.
Today, I had to remind myself that I'm in the pursuit of good stuff and that may mean veering off the path from time to time. And I'm okay with that.