I'm watching too much television. And I'm drinking too much wine. I'm not eating properly. I haven't exercised in two months and my mind is in a place that's strangely overcast by disorder and haze.
I finish my day only to crawl into bed and forget immediately what was important and truly amazing about 24 hours. It's a blur. A google-speed swish of life that leaves me exhausted and, obviously, no better off than I was the day before.
I need clarity and revelation. I need to engage the thoughts that swirl around in my head and make me dizzy. I need to listen to the entire conversation and not just the parts I like. Some people call this process of engaging, "inquiry". Others call it "being in the moment". I call it just trying to get my stuff together.
For the next 30 days I'm going to be present and I'll write about it. I'll watch. And I will pray. And I will write a little more. I'm going to listen for the sounds I no longer hear and I'll write about it. And I'm going to inhale deeply and let you know how it feels.
(I credit the recent posts of this blogger for jump-starting this 30 day journey).
